Wednesday, September 2

Me? Blogging? That's different!

I remember when I first started this blog that I wrote several times a week. There was even a period when I was trying to write a full page daily. That was mostly for my journal, but a lot of those days had very little "personal identifying" things in them that I posted them here. 'course there was also a time when I went a little too far over to the paranoia mindset. You'll be happy to know it's been over a year (I think) since that was my common way of thinking. I admit it, I think it was somewhat fear-based, more like, oh crap, I don't know. I was just into all that "just in case" everything hits the fan I must be prepared way of thinking. Then two Yule/Christmas's I was in a really bad mood ranting about Christmas songs always being the same year after year after year. Was so cranky that just hearing the word "Christmas" was annoying me. To this day, almost a year later (possibly 2, can't find a blog entry to verify it) I remember the day that I was snapped out of it by my dear wife. Actually remember the conversation (or close to it). I just kept going on and on about really disliking the Yule/Christmas holiday/season when she looked at me, almost with tears in her eyes, a scowl on her face and said, "You know, just because *you* don't like Christmas and Christmas songs doesn't mean I don't! I'm *trying* to stay upbeat about it all and you are NOT helping, so just try to make the best of it and let US enjoy the season!!" Then it hit me and *SNAP* I started finally coming out of that funk and into that guilt of making everyone in the house miserable just because I wasn't happy. Realized just how selfish I was being and did my best to "just cheer-up, dammit!" A month or two after that I went to the doctor and *finally* got put on an anti-fatigue medicine that I was prescribed 2 years before but the Medicare Prescription Insurance wouldn't pay for, so I did without. Plus my anti depressant dosage was upped. Well, with the mind-snap and the medicine all combined I came OUT of it and actually started to enjoy life. That's right, happiness through chemicals. Ya do what ya gotta do I suppose. *snicker* Any hoot, for a year or more we've started worrying less and less about all the "bad" things that *could* happen and started focusing on what *good* things could become reality if we just went with the flow, so to speak. I stopped watching political news completely, and let me tell you, THAT made a HUGE difference in my mood and mindset, not to mention people around me didn't seem so bad anymore either. LOL.
The last couple of months. Got a new car that we desperately needed. Thank you Obama! Enrolled DD in College, only doable thanks to Rain's bio dad. Got DD a new laptop computer for school as well. Thank you, Sir! Got a couple of flat screen, 19 inch monitors for our computers (SuuuWEET. *smile*). Have become closer to our egg connection/hay mower and bailer a mile away. We gave our pool table and exercise machine to our new/9 year neighbors, but we got a Wii System so we can still play sports and exercise. It's nice having friends who live only minutes away, as opposed to hours. Although with a vehicle that not only gets better gas mileage but is way more dependable, we can visit our far-away friends more often, therefore helping us feel less isolated. Woot! Unfortunately they've pretty much moved on with their lives so we're not as close as we once were. Long distance relationships are really hard to maintain for long periods of time. Yeah, I know, that's obvious, but me being me, I felt the need to state the obvious. Sometimes it's a curse. LOL. At least we have The Internet, so we're still in contact.
Unfortunately, but not too bad since the kids hadn't been swimming much anyway, the pool liner and sand-filter developed a leak so we shut the pool down for the year. Our solar porch light's battery died right after I bragged about finally getting it mounted on the front porch. LOL. Of course it was sad when my parents moved on to the great beyond in March, but at least they are no longer suffering or unhappy. I know that has nothing to do with the pool, just popped into my head. Been thinking about them both lately. Don't know why really. Guess I miss them more than I thought I would even though we only talked on the phone every couple of months toward the end.
Had a good year of tomato producing. Apple tree never did bloom or produce apples, ever since last year's surprise ice snap right as it was flowering. But the grass keeps on growing, is green most of time, so at least we have that to beautify the place. And of course the Rose of Sharons along the front are beautiful. The weeping willow tree in the back got blown over, but being a willow tree just kept on growing anyway. Kind of neat actually. Now it's almost Fall and cooling off more during the day and early morning's especially. But it's all good. If you made it this far, thanks for reading.


Cell Chic said...

Hey, Todd - nice to hear more than 140 characters from ya :o) You and your family sound like neat folks.

APinkLilly said...

Reminds me that I don't want to be too far away from 'civilization'. Will keep this in mind when we make our next move.

Love that your DD is doing her thing in college. My DH felt that only Ivy League would do. Have talked him out of that. Frugal here ;)

Lee said...

Love your post and am jealous of your good tomato production. Ours was very sub par mostly due to the heavy 6 wk long stretch of rain. We are still harvesting but from here on out it is touch and go till frost. (it was cool all ready the past couple mornings, I am not joking!)
Awesome on the new wheels. What did you get? My car is a rustbucket but gets good miles and didn't qualify! LOL

Rambleman said...

Thanks for the comments. Y'all are AWESOME!

Lee, we got a '09 Toyota Yaris Sedan. The last tank of gas we got about 37 MPG :-)You can see it here

Stuff On My Blog said...

Don't think of it as happiness through chemicals.. it's a medical issue just like cancer, treat it so that you can get on with enjoying your life! It really does sound like it's done wonders for you :) Grats on the new wheels and the tomato growing! I hope to join you in posting about my 'mater growing exploits on my blog soon!

Rambleman said...

Thanks, S.O.M.B! :-)