7/21/2013 10:44 PM (beginning time)
It was a pretty good day. At least I did no physical harm. Notice I didn’t say that I did no harm, because how my actions or inaction affect the cosmic energy, I don’t know. I suppose I could say that I didn’t do any intentional harm. I did try to smash an ant when I was by the hot-tub, but I missed and didn’t think it important enough to chase it down.
Yeah, I did say “hot-tub”, even though the temperature was probably in the 90’s. Ya know what? I really have no idea what the temp was when I went to sit in the tub of hot water this morning. I did something today that I had never done before. What? Oh, the first activity I participated in after my nightly-morning rest was to put on my swim trunks and head to the hot-tub, even before having breakfast or anything more than a drink of water. I’ve wanted to sit in the hot-tub for a few days, but never did, primarily because I don’t like sitting in it alone. But today I thought, “Screw it, I’m going in alone and I don’t care who sees me walking there. Been very self-conscious of what people will think of me when they see me walking. Yes, I have been told straight-up by whomever I’m with that it’s no big deal. Just doesn’t feel like ‘no big deal’ to me though. Or see me sitting alone.” Although I know deep-down I should NOT care what others think, I do think someone may be thinking it‘s just pathetic to always be without a side-kick. Ya know what? I don’t really think anyone would think that, but I kind of feel that way because I am always by myself. That being said, I have had a rise in “happy thoughts” the last few days, Hmm… mayhap this whole “consciously changing negative thoughts into positive ones for increased happiness” stuff is for real. See, in my quest to be not like everyone else, it’s coming to my front conscious that some things that are considered “normal” aren’t so bad after all. Like the theory that all it takes to be happy is to think happy thoughts. Could it really be that simple? I am having trouble really believing that we can change our physical health by using thoughts alone or even primarily. What if it’s your brain that has problems? Say like Multiple Sclerosis which is confirmed by running an imaging scan of the brain, and if lesions (scars) are seen to be in the actual brain matter, you have MS, or something along those lines. Healing my brain by thinking it all better just doesn’t seem likely to me. Again, could it really be that simple? Or am I just going to have health issues the rest of my life? Though my wife and daughter say there have been instances of ‘total remission’ of MS-like symptoms just by changing the diet. I mostly follow the low-carb/low processed food way of eating. Again, it conjures up thoughts like, “just because it’s on the Internet doesn’t make it true”. I just need to meet someone who been lucky enough to basically be healed (remised?), in person, before I become a believer. I don’t know why I can’t have more faith. I do have a brain disorder, so give me break. LOL. Like Mulder said, “I WANT TO BELIEVE”.
Also today, I rode the stationary bike in the exercise room for 15 minutes. I did an aerobics workout via a Wii program. I did some balance exercises, also using the Wii system. Enjoyed a few games of Wii sports with my son. A load of laundry was completely done. Oh yeah, and I cooked breakfast for me, then lunch/supper for me and the young man I like to call my son.
This concludes another session of “Deep thoughts by Todd”. Until next time,
finished time: 11:59 PM