Friday, July 19
Thursday nights group meeting
I went to another support group meeting last night. We talked about meditation and did a short version of what guided meditation will be like. Next Thursday we’re going to do an actual 20 minute/full meditation. I just need to remember 3 memories in my past that I remember being truly happy. One that I have is when I was lying in a field with my childhood best friend, looking up at the clouds and describing the shapes we saw. Now I just need 2 more that I can elongate into the happy feeling for at least a minute. I originally thought one memory could be when I was reciting my wedding vows in front of the judge, but I don’t know if that’s smart because it brings back memories of when Renee’ was alive. Yeah, I know that there must be some good memories with her over the 20 years that I knew her, but it’s still hard to think of those times without getting sad.